comfortably numb

where are you going? ..how are you getting there?

at no surprise

Top 5 Reasons Why I Hate the Gym:

1) It sucks, 2) texting is more prevalent than breathing, 3) when I see people wave in my direction, I generally wave back because I don't wear my glasses..and then later realize that they were not waving to me, 4) and while waving back, I run into things (most recently the wall) while walking away, 5) there's no good snacks.

it's a great delight and honor

Eddie has taught me a great many things. Most recently, that we are always seeking or running.  Seeking to feel better, to feel loved. Running from discomfort, pain, loneliness.

It's interesting to be conscious of this..and to then see what happens. After all, if you don't change direction.. you might end up where you're going.

Rincon.

cyclical.

we have surrendered ourselves to the mind. the mind which connects the dots down the path to joy

..and somehow this only leads us further from it.

the morning message

I Wanted To Change The World

When I was a young man, I wanted to change the world. I found it was difficult to change the world, so I tried to change my nation. When I found I couldn't change the nation, I began to focus on my town. I couldn't change the town and as an older man, I tried to change my family. Now, as an old man, I realize the only thing I can change is myself, and suddenly I realize that if long ago I had changed myself, I could have made an impact on my family. My family and I could have made an impact on our town. Their impact could have changed the nation and I could indeed have changed the world.

-Unknown Monk 1100 A.D.

Thundercat returns

clarity, or so

the dream world's most influential gift to me- published, finally.

Geometric forms that simultaneously accept and reject each other-

a concealed narrative (for now)

naked.

I've sat down at my desk 4 times in the past 29 hours- excited and ready to write. When I get here, I find myself reminded that I'm stuck. I cannot write with clarity. At least, not like I used to.

Last week, my baby, my computer of 5 years, died on me. I'm stuck at a standstill. My creative potential has become stagnant. I have no energy to review photos, or retouch what I've captured lately. 

But, for what?

A piece of me was attached to my old computer. My mind doesn't like the idea of moving on. However- what I'm trying to appreciate is whether it's the computer that I'm attached to- or perhaps something else.

I haven't fully appreciated the last few months. What seems like yesterday, my life was a complete 180 from where it is today. I lived on the other side of town, with the Breakfast Lunch Club, and with an optimistic outlook.

Things were good.

What happened over the course of September drastically turned my world upside down. I went from a peaceful artist to an abandoned soul.  From here, I went to Yosemite where there was only a tent, my yoga mat, and a wise teacher. Here, I found my breath and was able to open my eyes- without tears. Through some struggle, I got back on my two feet.

Today, I remain vulnerable. However, it is this vulnerability that has enabled me to grow. And I am the most centered that I've been in 25 years.

Here's to you old computer, the past..and what's about to come.

You can come back now. Please?

Consider what your mind tells you is happiness. Now consider whether that's true.